I feel sad. A little, I guess. I;ve alwys got whatever I want up until SPM year. I failed a few times to get what I want. But failing in something teaches me to be strong. When it comes to academics especially, I just wanna get to the utmost TOP that sometimes I feel guilty, I'm greedy and seems like I'm not actully content with whatever it is. I have to stop. I think,I'm making myself weak,I want the highest,the top,the most,everything,the star shining brightly with potential. As you know, string of As is a must for me in primary school. I have that competitive attitude since primary,but soon it wears off little by little after the passing of Daddy. The pain,the shattered emotion and physical pains,only Allah and I know how hard, difficult for me to cope up with this lifeon Earth,which is temporary.
I know some potential or rewards are out there for me. If not now,maybe in university later. I got that temporary limelight before,maybe for once, I have to endure something 'new' in order to test me,whether I'm a good Muslim,with iman and taqwa. Obstacles,problems are just part and parcel of my life,of everyones life.
I kinda like that guy,but..... I have doubts, I 'm being hard with everyone, I think.
Degree-master-phd.... this is my dream and I wont stop!
Bangkit Farah bangkit!!!
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