I'm lazy and mentally ill (part 2)

I'm so scared...

This Thursday you know,March the 11th..

I dont know,but my expectations are high, and I'm sure to be very much disappointed if I didnt get what I really wanted..

I think about it day and night..In fact, to make myself more mentally ill and retarded(is it too much?), I wrote down my own results, over and over again,hoping this would be the real results. I hope things are going to turn out the way I expected.

Some scholarship applications are open now. Have to wait for my results before applying.

Khazanah scholarship,,

Shell scholarship..

Go to this website www.malaysia-scholarship.coo.my

Which field of studies should I choose? I'm so confuse. So hard to make my decision,between health sciences and engineering.

The think is I dont really know what the engineers do.

Not enough exposure about engineering ,if only i attend technic school..

I'm just so into medicine..

How? What should I do?

Stop it,this is driving me crazy

Help~~

I'm lazy and mentally ill

Now i realise that cursing is not cool.. It doesnt sound cool...

I wonder why nowadays people keep copying the west way of cursing..

Doesnt sound too..mature. Its so childish,maybe they thought they sounded like those rappers hiphop stars hollywood people etc.

And it's like,hey,I'm so westernized..

Give me a break