Rain and Storm is Part and PArcel of My life

It seems just so hazy, so dim, the gray clouds hover above me. The leaves swirled around me,brown,dead leaves. Seemed so old, departed away from their home,the branches of the trees. Cold wind seems to crawl beneath my skin, the angry thunder clapped, the lightning flashed brightly,blinding my eyes, the wind howled, a melancholy, sad song. The gray clouds couldn't wait to release their burden to the Earth. It wasn't that long before the rain came pouring down. Shattering the windowpanes, pitter patter on the roof. A constant rhythm,everytime. Everytime.

After solat I prayed...Amidst the storm outside.. I poured out whatever I felt,to Allah, I just don't know where to turn to,there is just no reliable person,since the passing of Dad. The pain inside seemed to swell, and witnessed by the storm and the rain outside, the drops of tears,accumulating tears ran down my cheeks, down the prayer mat,it goes on smoothly and rapidly. The pain is just too much for me to bear,if Dad were stll alive,he wouldnt let me be in this state,but it was just as painful as it already is to think about the past..

"Ya Allah, give me the strength to overcome the obstacles coming my way.. Give me tranquility and happiness in my life on Earth and herafter. I'm just your weak servant and i have nowhere to turn to but you..Nowhere,..I couldnt get the life that I've always wanted,and I know Ya Allah,you know whats best for me...YOu know me better than myself..Show me and guide me to the right path,easen up the burden in me, the burden that have been accumulating for so long inside that it has eaten me up emotionally...Give me the strength,the solutions for whatever that its is I'm facing right now...For it is you who owns everything in this world.. "

'Amin..'

"Farah,... My youngest sister called me. She looked at me..She was in tears,and I were too.. She sat in front of me on the prayer mat. We were silent for a moment . The rain lashing down the roof, .Pitter patter. The howling of the wind filled the air. Both were in tears.

" I cant stand it adik, where,who,how? What...? To whom?" I spoke out between sobs. "It is just too much for me to bear..too much"..

"You are strong Farah..Thats why Allah gave these obstacles, just be patience and tell Him everything,asked for His guide for He is The Most Merciful and Almighty."

She wiped away my tears. I wiped away hers. I stood up, and walked toward the window. The wind seemed cold but refreshing. I closed my eyes and felt the wind brushing against me. It seemed to be filled with miseries..

However,no matter how long the storm seemed to go on and on,the sun would always came out with the rainbow..Spreading the warmth and brightness to the life on Earth.